tunes: Coldplay - Trouble

Maybe its PMS, maybe it's listening to Coldplay on repeat, but I'm having serious issues. These past few days have been trying...and tonight is going to be a big test on whether or not I'm going to flip out and just give up on everything. Over at Catalyst...there have been days where I just want to give up, walk out the fucking door and never ever come back to this goddamn place. I don't know why. Is it the people? The place? The work? The repetition? The frustration? I don't know, but I am reevaluating everything... I mean, this is a part of life. Repetition comes with a steady job that I'll hopefully have one day. Then again, everything seems hopeless. What the FUCK are my chances of getting past this training? What the fuck are my chances of losing my mind and throwing this computer and my other stuff around like a crazy fucking psycho nutjob. Maybe it's the lack of sleep? Maybe it's something chemical? I'm getting worried, a little concerned. I started out loving this, now ... I don't know. I don't want to give this up and have nothing. Am I wasting my time? What am I doing? Fuck, I can't believe there are people more concerned about their personal life than shit like this. Is that a bad thing? Maybe I need someone in my life. Like a cat. Yeah, maybe I should look into getting a cat. Maybe a lot of cats. I'll have my own army. We can call ourselves the bitch kittens. We can own this fucking lot. Fuck all.