The wait continues

Might know today or tomorrow. Hoping for good news! Been so anxious to do this for a while. Aside from this not much has been going on. Had been a lot busier the past month but now slowing down. Trying to save money. Haven't been running as much out of laziness. Still managing to maintain 110 weight, thankfully. Lots of coffee, not enough beer. Getting far long in Bleach, in the 70s now. Got about 300 more episodes to go!

Losing hope

Is this year just a test for hope? I keep thinking it'll be OK but then gradually losing hope. I was told that there were reasons I would be left alone and while neither are good I'm very worried it's because of something that would really disappoint me. Again. I don't know yet, all I can do is wait and hope.

Also, I'm not too confident about the outcome of what happens on Thursday/Friday. I need to remember that it will be OK. That we can always wait or try again. There's no rush. It's just something I really want right now even though it's not financially the best thing to do. I need to stop stressing it because I really feel I am the only one carrying this burden.

Ups and downs

Trying not to lose heart when bad news happens, especially when it's not happening to you but most certainly affects you. Lots has happened the past few weeks since my last blog and even bigger things were being planned. Hoping that things work out as planned still but one can only hope.

The hard part is just being so tired already. I feel like I'm complaining over small potatoes but I really just want this weight lifted. I'm still not over some things and I don't think those feelings ever go away. I'm trying my best. At least, I hope I am.