tunes: Ayumi Hamasaki - Evolution

Haha, I finally have something to talk about. Someone left this entry in my guestbook, but unfortunately did not leave a name or any contact info. Dang.

"i hate you.i hate how you use gay like it's a bad term. your shallow and you think youre hard core.quit trying to be somthing youre not. "

Wow, someone hates me. Okay, that's no big deal. The 'gay' thing. I'm wondering if this person is talking about what I said about the Gackt video (which was, I have to admit, gay and I don't mean that in any derogatory way. Watch the Mirror video, I can't describe it any other way. After seeing the Vanilla live performance, it's hard to think of Gackt as perfectly straight.) or if this has something to do with the deviantart site and my image. Honestly, I am NOT NOT NOT a homophobe at all. I think that I use 'gay' to often refer to things that I don't like, it's a bad habit that I picked up from those around me, but I don't mean to make it a reference to homosexuality. Yeah, BAD HABIT NEED TO STOP. So I can apologize for that, haha ^^;;;

Shallow. Ouch. I really don't think I'm shallow at all, but I guess that's just stemming from using 'gay' in a negative way. Next.

Hardcore. Being something I'm not. A hardcore WHAT? Like I'm tough? Gah, that's so funny. Yeah, I'll kick your ass in Diablo II o.O Ha, I can't even do that. I have an 89 zon that will get torn apart by anyone (so my dueling skills are lame, I'm not built for PvP). Er, anyway. Anyone that knows me will tell you I'm a huge dork, completely non-threatening, and I'm definitely not "hardcore" in any cool way. I'm not even hardcore in DII (that means you play as a mortal, lmao, I wouldn't last into Act 2). Hmmm.... I don't even know what I'm a hardcore fan of.... I like too much stuff, I have too many hobbies. Okay... as for being something I'm not. I don't think I act a certain way, or try to be anything. I don't even try to be cool! I take pride in being a complete dork with no social life and no friends. I guess maybe I'm a wannabe outcast? Is that what they meant? Hmph. Darn. I tried so hard to be excluded from everyone. I guess I'm not complete outcast yet. Dammit. Maybe I should start cutting myself XD I need some enlightenment.

I'll be changing my page. I think I should make the iframe smaller and move some stuff over to the other side. I don't like it that people will have to scroll twice if they are on a lower resolution (800x600). Poor poor indeed. Feh. I hate playing with tables XPPPPP

Moving on.....