Whaaaambulance

So tired of having my heart just shit on. Is this the year for that? How can you make someone see that what they are doing is hurting you? No matter how trivial, if something upsets you it just does. How can you care for someone so much and do that for them but when you are hurt they don't make you feel better. There must be some awful guy gene that makes them this way. Sometimes I just want to give up. It's not fair. Should I just not care about something so "trivial"? I don't know what to do at times like this. He may not be wrong so is he required to feel your pain, too? Is it unfair that I felt a huge injustice in how the day and night ended for us? I feel like I do so much, try to make him happy, involve him in different things but I really waited for him for this and he went and did it without me. Is it unnecessary drama? Should I just suffer in silence? I feel like I suffer a lot. I put my neck out for a lot of people I just find that a lot wouldn't do the same for me. That is some bullshit. Maybe I am expecting too much. I always try to be appreciative. I am very fragile these days and what happened today was just not something I could bear easily. I don't want to blame myself because I am always doing so. I need someone who understands where I'm coming from. Someone who cares about my feelings. Is that just something you can't expect from a guy? Or ami just being a stupid girl....